writing thread

Welcome to Acarina being emotional again:

Emotions are some times a habit to expose to the world, sometimes people bury in side of themselves and let it all out when they know when it right, sometimes people don’t want to feel these emotions, sometimes we over express them, sometimes we never realize why express it, sometimes it hurt us and last of all we express them.

Emotions are like fun toys to play with but once you play with them, no one would know the outcome, including you. When you hear the word: “War”, what most people would think or feel would be sadness or anger or the feeling that they don’t really care or to be concern with this subject of matter. But actually it’s better to feel concern, the reason being is that… War isn’t happening as much as it used to, not that many civil wars dragged many countries to help them. There are less conflict that are concerning to war than other type of conflict such as a dispute for land. If I type this word, what would you feel? “Equality”
If you were an activist, then you will be concern with this issue of equality or will likely to react to this in a positive or negative way (depending on the situation). If it was a person who didn’t really care much of this idea or know about the idea but didn’t really know what to do, then they wouldn’t care. Then lastly there are the people who would react to this in a very negative way such as: “____ people shouldn’t have the freedom to do stuff” (The reason why I left that blank is because if I put a specific word, it may offend people.) But in this context, I just used the word “Equality” yet many people have many feelings and perspective about this subject of matter. But then, it also has a mathematical meaning too which is a symbolic expression of two quantities or just basically an equation. So which exactly is the context that I’m typing about? That’s where the emotions come into play, it decides on what we believe what is right and just go with it. But hey! That is what your brain and your emotion thinks, right? But emotions are more complex than that as most people know but we are able to show just the basic of emotions such as anger.

Now to talk about how people express them, well, if you are reading this and if you actually bury the emotions inside of yourself and let it all out then you are just like me! But people everyone has a different trait on the way they react to emotions and feelings. Here is a mini rant or something random that I hate about people’s eyes and judgement…
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE STARE AT ME OR LOOK DIRECTLY AT ME PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY
Just looking at a person in the eye scares me already, okay but I tend to hide that but sometimes when people stare at me, I feel very - very - very - insecure about myself. I hate when teachers tell me to… “Look me in the eyes” or “I don’t see everyone’s eyes looking at me.” PLEASE STOP LOOKING AT ME or at least STOP MAKING ME LOOK AT YOU, I want to at least have a conversation where I don’t have to look people in the eye (which will never happen). My eyes are known for crying and not looking at people. (Yes, at teachers, once I look at them, I tend to go back doodling what ever I want.) EYE CONTACT SCARES ME, it’s not the fear of eyes but the fear of judgment. That’s why I hide it with a personality that people also knows me for… for being kind or nice to people. So then it would block the thoughts of people judging me and hearing their heart beat and voices in my head. (Which is disturbing)

Back on to the topic on emotions, we all know how people act differently right? My friend cried because she was scared of showing a video in front of the class but people took that crying as a subject to make fun off. That's not fair, it hurts my heart that how crying can be an issue with the world. It pains it, it's so sad that I want to let it all out and cry. Why such little matters are so dear to me? Does it matter to you? Doesn't it?

Okay before I think I go emotional over my feelings, everyone has different ideas (this is called ideology) and how stories (perspectives) can show many feelings. We keep creating issues, contradictions, facts, words and ideas that not that many people would believe at first all because of our emotions.

Why does things mean differently to each other, even though we are the same? What makes us so different than other than being our own cell? WHAT MAKES US FEEL IT?
WHAT MAKES US KNOW THE FEELING?
These are question that no one is able to answer, I know it and you might as well know it. Emotions plays deeply in our lives, without it you can't be emotionless as well because to be emotionless is to able to feel emotion without emotions. WHAT IS REALLY EMOTIONLESS?
Now just putting on a facade doesn't count, but to feel or to be emotionless, is to have a motionless expression, meaning it can't be neutral as well because that is a expression. We can't define what is really emotionless but we can use emotionless in a sentence or as an adjective to a person who doesn't react a lot.

Feelings are something in our lives that if get rid out off may hurt you or make you feel happy but nether-less it will create a real impact on our lives, we will be just human beings. We will be just the same, we will be just a copy of each other. At last, it's your decision to decided what to do with your emotions, so be free with it, even you don't want to feel it, just stop at some point and try to start again.